It’s not the same anymore because you decided to push me away as well as I did. You wanted to give me space, and now you say that it’s not the same. I know its not the same I’ve changed and so did you. I’ve been trying to be there for you but all you tell me is you have people who are willing to listen, and that I’m being forced. I gave up just as well as you did. It hurts to not talk to you, you are my best friend I still consider it. I’m hurt just as much as you are. I tried making better, but you are too stubborn. :/

dealing with..

i honestly think im the worst best friend ever, i have been selfish in my own acts and not worrying about anyone else but my own. i feel so terrible that i have yet to do something about it and its just said. i love my best friend amani and shes the world to me, it would be tragic to actually lose her. shes everything that i wanted in a best friend and i hope she sees that i do care about her and not just say it. im sorry for how i was acting and not trying to make it better i promise you im going to try harder and even harder. i dont want to lose you, i want everything to be back the way it was. 

I don’t want to be pulled around, I have no doubt in my mind that it will happen but I’m scared it might. I know you’re different and I’m happy that you are, just don’t let me have false hope.